I say goodbye every night

Haven't done this in a long time

1. you are literally the most boring person i hope to ever meet. it is incredibly depressing.
2. :3
3. :3
4. :3
5. I can do without you, sorry.
6. You are a good friend, but I haven't been trying.
7. You are a good friend and I have been trying because you have been trying and because I guess I want to try, too.
8. I miss those days when we did things together.
9. I still kind of wish we were friends.
10. I think you are ADORABLE and I wish you thought the same of me.
    
11. I also wish you were older. Wah wah.
12. I'm sorry that I'm so stern and condescending sometimes. I can't help it.
13. I'm sorry that I've accused you.
14. I'm sorry that this is my job.
15. I still think you would be a douchebag, regardless, though.
16. You are fucking creepy.
17. You are probably going to be the cause of the next school massacre, and I am literally afraid.
18. You are fucking creepy, too, but more tolerable.
19. Let's continue being friends yay!
20. You, too!
21. I'm sorry that I can hardly understand your soft voice and thick accent, but we are friends so it will be okay, I think.
22. Stop playing WoW. It depresses me.
23. Don't get raped by an old man. Seriously. You will never take me seriously until it happens.
    
24. I become very sad when I think about your story.
    
25. I want to be friends with all of you really badly, but there are so many unchangeable circumstances that keep us at a distance.
26. I am not surprised at the gravity of your situation.
    
27. I wish that I liked this job enough to work with you. Best of luck.
28. Sorry, you are not fit for the job. You are a good person, though.
29. You are still the most well-meaning person I have ever met. I'm sorry that you make so many bad decisions, or that so many bad things happen to fall upon you, or that so many shitty people have invaded your life at one point or another.
30. I miss you.
31. I enjoy our friendship.
    
32. Our friendship is fading and I am sad, but I think that it will not disappear, so I'm not super sad. I guess.
33. You are hilarious.
34. I wish it would've went differently.
35. I am really over it and it is weird.
36. You are just kind of sad now haha...
37. You are awkward and probably always will be.
38. I'm sorry, but I don't think you will make it.
39. I'm still kind of mad that you ignored me.
40. You forgot to give me a syllabus and I forgot to ask. I don't know what we are doing. Stop ignoring me.
41. Your recent occurrences frighten my future. I refuse.
42. Thank you.
43. I love you.
44. I appreciate everything, but I don't love you.
45. I think you are kind of evil.
46. You are adorable.
47. Die in a fire.
48. Choke on a crunchberry.
49. I am starting to appreciate and value our friendship more.
50. You make me feel so sad and hopeless.
51. Stop smoking.
52. Stop smoking.
53. Stop smoking.
54. Stop smoking.
55. Stop smoking.
56. All of you, stop smoking.
57. You are starting to weird me out, friend.
58. I have new respect from you, but I believe I have lost the right to have you acknowledge that. I'm sorry.
59. I'm sorry for being such a terrible person. I only meant well in the beginning...
60. Such is fate.
61. You will never think. You will never understand. You will never know. And you will be happy in your ignorance. And I hate you for that.
62. You are really rude.
63. You are really bitchy, like wtf?
64. Hiiiii
65. I wish I knew you better.
66. Haha.
67. I wish I were on that same level of friendship.
68. I am you.
69. You are me.
70. And we are three.
71. Die in a fucking fire.
72. I still have high hopes for you.
73. No no no, don't do it.
74. No no no, you too. Don't do it. Don't you realize that you are terrible at it?
75. WHY WON'T YOU WORK AHHHHH
76. You are a cool professor. Sorry.
77. Seriously?
78. No.
79. I am so glad to be leaving you. But I am afraid that you will never leave me.
    

To Do:

• Let it Glow
  
• Phil quizzes
  
• Phil papers due this Sunday and Monday
• Cram for Accy exam
• Cram for Accy final [need at least 87%]
  
• Cram for Phil final
• Adri's photoshoot
• Letter to Gina
• Sketches for Discovery Museum
  

• Experiment with oil paint
• Paintings for Discovery Museum
• Buy Macbook Pro
  

• Communist photoshoot
• Take WPJ
  

• Update Discovery Museum
• Keep in touch with people, especially lonely parents
  

11/29/09 tales of a creeper: drive back to sac

• I made friends with this white car, last digits 644. Mine are 664, I'm pretty sure. We seemed to be going in the same direction. And then there was some switching of lanes, partly because I didn't want to be creepy. But then he sped up and I almost lost him! I was so worried that I had lost a travel buddy for at least half an hour. I was really mad that he had left me. And then I caught up and for a moment I was very content, but then immaturity struck and I sped past, thinking EAT MY DUST, THAT'S WHAT YOU GET FOR LEAVING ME, FRIEND! And then I felt bad, but I didn't want to be creepy and slow down all the way to meet him again. But eventually we got onto the same wavelength [speedlength!] and I didn't care about being creepy anymore, so I drove in front of him for a while. And then I drove behind him for a while. And then to the side. And then he left me about an hour in. I was sad. I had lost a friend that I had just barely made!
  
  
• I found out what it was like to play Desert Bus, but in real life. Background: Desert Bus is this really boring computer game where you have to drive a bus from one destination to another. You only see the dashboard and the road. You can only go a maximum of about 65mph, I think. There is no one else on the road, only you and a straight road. What involves the gamer is the fact that the alignment is slightly off, so the bus tends to veer slightly right, thus causing the gamer to need to continually make sure that the bus doesn't drive off the road, or else you have to get towed back to your original starting point and start all over again! Also, on my drives to or from sac, I always like to play this dangerous game called "How far can Cat go without touching the steering wheel?" So, while playing this game, I have found that either my alignment is slightly off or the roads just aren't that straight. Thus, Desert Bus in RL.
  
  
• At about 6pm, when it was dark, I was in the middle lane for a while and there were a bunch of cars ahead of me, but the rest were pretty far behind. Not sure why. Anyway, my headlights reflected off of the lane dividers, therefore creating this nice glowing white and black road contrast. I started to zone out a bit, and it looked like I was a space craft in OUTER SPACE after a while. I kept imagining the cars in front of me hovering up and down over and under the "light"-way [highway]. Sometimes cars/trucks would surround me or switch lanes and I would yell in my head, "YOU'RE RUINING MY SPACE," because their lights would sort of offset the space effect.
  

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